because it's damn easy!!!!!!!

anyway.
some stuff got me thinking.
what is true happiness?
i don't know, i guess it depends on each individual.
but if i get my answers now... doesn't that mean i don't have to walk the rest of my days!?
still, i need a definition of happiness.
happiness! is a joyful feeling.
true happiness!! is not momentary.

yeah. i think true happiness is not something you feel on the spot. it's not someone suddenly treating you nicely and you feel good about yourself.

such happiness is like bubble; tested against any obstacle, it bursts very quickly.

true happiness i feel is when you can rise above anything, look at life in a general manner, and still tell yourself it's worth being alive.

i think it's hard. from time to time, we want to stop. and consider terminating our time on this planet.
i frequently found myself asking, why do some people say our time on this planet is short?
maybe they're happy, and they have lots of things they want to do, and they're taking actual steps to actualise them...
instead of the familiar "sitting on it and dreaming about it like it happened but it never did"...
so that's why time is short?

so, you frequently find optimists, or just about any positive soul, ahead of most of their peers.

and pessimists being pessimists, never feel adequate enough to step into the other half of the yin&yang structure (hahaha what is this man).




i wonder if i'd go mad soon if i keep thinking about such things everyday -__-

maybe life is like any final fantasy game. here's your stats:

Lvl (age): 20
Job Lvl (mental age): 10
HP (stamina to withstand life's problems): 1000
MP (erm...mental capacity?): 20

and then you have a whole bunch of things to accomplish... the things you can build up:
- Compassion
- Integrity
- Honesty
- blablabla, whatever you can think of.

following that, we have the ever present side quests!!
- Corporate Achievements
- Personal Achievements
- Contact List
- Marital Status

now, i'm so excited to share that contact list is. i was excitedly telling about it (in fact i proposed this idea to her, but not like any of us can do anything about it).

the contact list has a slot of 1000. and so, your aim is to know 1000 people and try to maintain solid relationships with at least 200 of them. what does this do? it can affect your corporate achievements and personal achievements. any random act of kindness will generate the different NPCs in your contact list to either harm you or help you. cool right???

and at the end of the game, the contact list plays a very big part to your ending--you can either have a funeral party consisting of 1000 people!!!! k, kinda idealistic i suppose... but it's a game so what's the big deallll.

so if life was a game... would it look like that? it'd suddenly make your life less difficult to handle, no? ...maybe not HAHA.



who cares. it still doesn't answer how i'm gonna live the next of my days |||orz||| k i guess we need battles in life to fight or we'd never level up. lol!